almost graduating and my current situation

Wow its been a year already and i am graduating, i am about to enter in a career that i did not dream of even doing when i was 5. Hopefully god will guide me in this career, a career that hopefully help me build my life in the future. I just finished browsing EA's website and they have an intern co-op positions that is perfect for new graduate available. The perks in getting an intern position is unreal, here are some of the perks you get working as an intern in EA

1. Be able to work in a AAA game and have your name in the credits
2. Have a "New grad" director to guide you in your career in EA
3. TRAVEL (FUCK YEAH)
4. GET PAID xD

Now onto the next subject....

Right now im mentally tired.... My final project weeks is KILLING ME... especially classical animation.. but im glad that im moving on the pace that i planned out. and hopefully finish everything by next week sunday :D

right now also im kind of dissapointed with myself.. i promised that special girl that i will always make her smile no matter what.... but right now shes depressed... and i cant do anything about it

i want to help her..bring the smile back on her face....it hurts me inside my heart that the person i really care for is sad and depressed... she does not deserve what is happening to her right now..

If someone of a higher power is listening to me now.... why are you doing this... is this a test that she has to overcome... is this sort of a twisted fate? is this to help her be more strong?.. i just want an answer...

but in the end i believe everything will turn out fine for her... i always believed that there is a light in the end of the tunnel... and by the time she reaches the end of the tunnel... i will be there to take her hands and make her smile again.... because right now...nothing is more important than her happiness.....

Heyyyyy

Hahahahha hey Rosa this is the blog that i told you that i have not used for a long time.....The time is currently 2:10 am, i bet you are sleeping right now... Hey uhmmm im supposed to put this in a facebook note but i dont like fb and its privacy settings(just dont trust it). well yeah hahahah anyways.

I am just here to tell you how much you have made a big difference in my life, its funny how we have been together for a few weeks but it seems like we have known each other for like years and years. Still i get shy when i tell you about what i feel.... but yeah errr i just want to say thank you very very much for accepting me for who i am.. i guess you are getting annoyed that i tell you this a lot but back then most people will laugh and mock me because of some of my fears and things i did not learn in my childhood(ie biking,swimming,etc)... i guess i can attribute that to my father who never really taught me stuff and i grew up with mostly females so most of the things i learned as a kid is cleaning the house and listening to really old music.

I also want to thank you for being so lovable and caring... i really really never have met a girl like you and like you said you are the most amazing surprise i have ever gotten in my life. Im sorry if the only way i can express my love for you is only through words, im sorry i cant do things other people did for you back then, im sorry im such a lazy ass sometimes and mostly never go out of my house, im sorry i cant always pay for you when we go out(stupid job market >,>), im sorry if i cant let you experience some things because of my weaknesses, im sorry if i always apologize to you about these things(maybe because i just dont like people around me to talk bad about me especially the ones i love the most^^) and most of all im sorry i didnt tell you this face to face...ahahahha i guess i still get shy around you..

I love you a lot rosa you just dont know ho much i care for you ^^ and i hope i can live up to your expectations :D... i know you dont want me to do a lot for you but i feel its a guy's duty to make a girl always happy

ahahhahahaha i have no idea why i wrote all of this...maybe because i miss you a lot and also i feel bad that you are not here with me in whistler, or maybe its just my nature not to fall asleep early hahahah.

i love you a lot..you mean the world to me...people always told me that i am very lazy but i promise to work very hard and make you the happiest girl the world..i know its not an easy task but as long as your hand is in my hand i believe i can move any mountain with just my finger.

dang its 2:35 now 0.0

anyways yeah i bet when you see this you must have finished your driving lessons and stuff..ok Princess Rosa im going to sleep now...

I love you a lot...

Jon ^^