almost graduating and my current situation

Wow its been a year already and i am graduating, i am about to enter in a career that i did not dream of even doing when i was 5. Hopefully god will guide me in this career, a career that hopefully help me build my life in the future. I just finished browsing EA's website and they have an intern co-op positions that is perfect for new graduate available. The perks in getting an intern position is unreal, here are some of the perks you get working as an intern in EA

1. Be able to work in a AAA game and have your name in the credits
2. Have a "New grad" director to guide you in your career in EA
3. TRAVEL (FUCK YEAH)
4. GET PAID xD

Now onto the next subject....

Right now im mentally tired.... My final project weeks is KILLING ME... especially classical animation.. but im glad that im moving on the pace that i planned out. and hopefully finish everything by next week sunday :D

right now also im kind of dissapointed with myself.. i promised that special girl that i will always make her smile no matter what.... but right now shes depressed... and i cant do anything about it

i want to help her..bring the smile back on her face....it hurts me inside my heart that the person i really care for is sad and depressed... she does not deserve what is happening to her right now..

If someone of a higher power is listening to me now.... why are you doing this... is this a test that she has to overcome... is this sort of a twisted fate? is this to help her be more strong?.. i just want an answer...

but in the end i believe everything will turn out fine for her... i always believed that there is a light in the end of the tunnel... and by the time she reaches the end of the tunnel... i will be there to take her hands and make her smile again.... because right now...nothing is more important than her happiness.....